whats going on

hey guyz
so anyway, my dad bought me a new phone.
like he can just buy his way out of it.
i cant even look at him the same anymore.
my mom told me to try and be nice to him.
that he's panicking that hes gonna lose his family.
so at least he still wants something to do with us.
but im still having a hard time looking at him, let alone talkiing to him.
my little brothers dont know yet.
im not sure i want them to.
i havent told any of my friends, cuz im afraid im gonna start crying.
i wish i didnt know.
i wouldve been better off knowing later than earlier.
ive been writing alot.
it eases the pain, takes my mind off of whats going on.
my mom's really worried about me.
she made me an appointment with a... counselor i guess???
i dunno
i keep faking smiles and acting like im over it.
shes not buying it.
well i tried...

~Kai

Because of you

well, my cousin is stayin with us for a few weeks,
she got here a couple days ago.
today we decided to go to sonic,
i was gonna rollerblade and she was gonna bike there.
but the tires were flat
i told her to go ask my dad for a bike pump
she was like "ummm..... lets just look for it a bit more"
we still couldnt find it,
so she decided to just walk.
when we got there, we paid for our food. when we were eating, she didnt talk much.
she sorta looked sad and nervous.
when we were goin back, my cousin was walkin pretty slow,
like she was tryin to keep me there as long as possible.
i was a lil frustrated when she did, cuz i wanted to get home,
but when i got home, i regretted that instantly.
my mom walked out from her bedroom,
and then she told me everything.



******** long story short, my dad's not sleeping there tonight.
or any night.




they are getting a divorce,
i dont wanna go into all of the details,
but its happening.
i havent smiled once since she told me.

~ Kai

My Heart broke, but didnt realize it till last nite....

ok, so,
u guys know about me and namine???
well, we broke up in january.
she thought i was cheating on her.
i dont kjnow how she thought i was cheating on her,
but she did...
we didnt talk after that.
she didnt believe me when i said i wasnt cheating on her.
...
well, the last day of school was the first time we talked since then.
i helped her clean out her locker.
she had a ton of papers in there.
i helped her sort them out.
and, i dont know how,
but some of them got in my backpack.
i went through it last nite, and.....

i found this note. it said

"when are you goin to friken break up with him???
ive been waiting for two months.
im tired of waiting.
hurry it up, cuz im not gonna wait forever."

she was cheating on me.
well, i dont know if its cheating if she was gonna break up with me anyway,
but it still hurt.
i dont know who its by, but after i read it, i picked up my phone and left her a text.
"who were u cheating on me with?"
she only replied, "...."

i threw my phone on the bed after that.
havent talked to her since last night.
i dont know if im being stupid by getting mad over something that happened six months ago,
but i am.
but u know what?
i ave an awesome girlfriend now.
and Namine wasnt even worth it.

~Kai (my permanent name.)

BABY BIEBER???!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO

HEY GUYS IM BACK!!!!!!
srry i havent posted in a while.....
been really focused on deviantArt.
then my scanner broke, and i remembered my blogger account!!!
lol.
anyway, srry about that.
well, summer is finally here!!!!
and, i start high school in august!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
im so nervous, but so excited!!!
if anyones interested, im in 3 honors classes, 1 ap class, and 2 ec classes.
ist gonna be a busy year!!!

my girlfriends in new york...... :(
and all of my friends are out of town......
its sad.
:(

anyway, there has been this rumor going on online,
i heard it on the radio,
that selena gomez was preggers with justin biebers baby.
i nearly died of hopelessness when i heard that.
i told my dad, and he said, "oh, god, no. another bieber is the last thing this planet needs... DX"
i love my dad XD

and, for you final fantasy 7 fans out there,
there have been some clues about square making a remake of final fantasy 7 for the ps3.
square announced the remake at e3 in 2005,
but they havent given us any further details since then.
they are currently working on final fantasy versus 13,
but people are still not sure if they will make another ff 7.
more infomation can be found here:
http://ps3.ign.com/articles/709/709775p1.html
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anyway, i have a 2,500 word paper on the Kite Runner for AP Human Geography due on the first day of school, so i gotta get busy!!!
i will start making regular posts as often as i can!!
my deviant Art is KHFFobsession, if u wanna check it out.
bye!!!

~Kai

two heroes, 8 connected.

hihihi
Kingdom hearts 3 is coming out next year!!!
i cant believe it!!!1
i am gonna buy it the first day it comes out.
there are gonna be two protagonists in this game!
who's it gonna be???
well Sora of course.
and who's the other one???
Riku?
no...
Aqua!!!
they r both gonna be the protagonists!
the game is gonna basically gonna be about sora journeying with donald, goofy, and riku searching for the lost souls that are connected to sora.
and they are....
Axel, Roxas, Xion, Namine, Terra, Aqua, and Ventus.
i dont know how aqua fits in as the hero.
maybe they find heer first??
i dunno.
but anyways,
im soo excited!!!!!!!!!!1
news to come!!!!!!!!!!
~Kai

11:09 am

hi guyz. so, nothing really happened today... well, dont call me gullible or something for beliving in these things, but i got a chain letter email this morning, and at first i thought "aw, another one?!" but then i actually read it. it said "if you forward this to 13 people, you will be told something youve wanted to hear at 11:09 am the morning after you recieve this." and, i did seend it to 13 people. ive been kinda wanting to hear about something. tomarrow, from 11 to 11 45, i have math, and the girl i like is in that class, so fingers crossed!!! ^^ see ye! Kai

EATEN ALIVE

ok, so umm my pricipal scares me. like, reaallly scares me. he was yelling at all of us toaday cuz apparently some kid in the 7th grade got picked on and we were like wtf man we dont even know this asshole. then he got madder and made us memorize stuff over the weekend. ass. in other news, i feed a live mouse to a snake today. i don wanna sound sick and twisted, but it was kinda entertaining to see a snake eat. ^^ ok, so the 3ds came out yesterday, im not gnna get it. im kinda annoyed with nintendo cuz whenever i get a new ds, a new version comes out two months later. i just got the dsiXL and now that comes out? Hell No. for all the sims 3 fans, there is another expansion comin out in a couple months its called Generations. its basically where you get treehouses for the kiddies and the teens can play pranks and im not sure about this, it is just a rumor, but i think there are school dances as well. but thats basically all i have. any way cya -/kai

immmmmmm bbbbbbaaaaaaacccccckkkkkkk

hi guyz well, im back. ... thank you for your warm welcomes.... wow alot has happened since i last posted. well first of all, me and demyx made up. dont ask how cuz i dont remember me and namine broke up. it was a long painful story dont ask me to repeat it. marluxia's still a bitch. ^^ and demyx tried to ask claire out, and failed. epically. LOL and thats basically it. write now im writing a research paper at school. if anyone gets this, im sorry for not repliing sooner. ill post tommarrow! -Kai

Im back

hey guys... im sososososososososo srrry!!! i, umm kinda got in trouble for something, then after awhile i forgot about this blog. im sorry...... but im totally starting a new blog. ill post every day, and i wont forget. Kai