whats going on

hey guyz
so anyway, my dad bought me a new phone.
like he can just buy his way out of it.
i cant even look at him the same anymore.
my mom told me to try and be nice to him.
that he's panicking that hes gonna lose his family.
so at least he still wants something to do with us.
but im still having a hard time looking at him, let alone talkiing to him.
my little brothers dont know yet.
im not sure i want them to.
i havent told any of my friends, cuz im afraid im gonna start crying.
i wish i didnt know.
i wouldve been better off knowing later than earlier.
ive been writing alot.
it eases the pain, takes my mind off of whats going on.
my mom's really worried about me.
she made me an appointment with a... counselor i guess???
i dunno
i keep faking smiles and acting like im over it.
shes not buying it.
well i tried...

~Kai